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[19 Apr 2005|10:48am] |
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2002-03-02 Date Created.
It sure has been a long long time...
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[10 Oct 2004|02:44pm] |
well, this is it, i'm making the leap over to the dark side.
www.livejournal.com/users/happytobegrey
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[24 Sep 2004|08:05am] |
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About to go to class. I'm really tired, but blah, gotta go, the new kid needs me.
I have another Cross Country meet today. Jazan and Daniel are going to come, so maybe that'll motivate me.
I'm ready, I can do this, I can get an awesometacular time.
jesus...
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[22 Sep 2004|10:51pm] |
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I saw a really frightening thing tonight at Taco Bell. I was sitting in Jazan's truck when a tan blazer drove by. I looked at the rear bumper and there it was: the sticker with the blue eagle. That means it's John. *shudders*
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[19 Sep 2004|10:33pm] |
I'm so horribly tired, but I decided to make a quick update even though no one reads this anymore.
Tomorrow is 8 months with Jazan. It's all been amazing. He's making me a present and I'm quite excited to see it. He's been pilfering all my pictures of us.
Tuesday is Daniel's birthday and I have no money to get him anything. :(
I have so many college essays and applications to work on. This all sucks!! Why do I need college?
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[16 Sep 2004|01:23pm] |
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God I haven't updated in quite awhile. I'm at Daniel's with Tracy and Geoff Z (who likes to randomly walk into rooms holding his nipples). I'm really bored and there's nothing much to do except type this up and listen to music and wish there was food because I'm fat. Jazan just left for class, I'll miss him for the whole 2 hours he's gone :P. I'm really happy with him. He's a great guy.
Daniel wants to go to Miami to rescue Mary and he wants me to drive. I told him okay, so long as i get money. That's a 10 hour round trip drive. Good god.
Okay, well, maybe there isn't much to say... Oh well, that's my life, boring, uneventful, and not controlled by a crazy boyfriend.
It's Fantastic.
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[09 Sep 2004|11:22pm] |
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Okay, so i haven't updated in a long time. One reason, I'm lazy. Second, I haven't had power since sunday and probably won't until Saturday. On top of that, another hurricane is on its way.
I dyed Daniel's hair today and it came out pretty cool. There was some dye left, so i did jazan's as well.
I gave jazan a letter and stuffed leopad today. He's worrying about our relationship because i decided to stop sex for like 2 weeks because it just got tedious and too expected. to him, that means i dont want to see him as much. Not rue. Whatever, though, i fixed ti all today.
Go Daniel for shoving off those pictures into the overflowed retention pond!!
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[29 Aug 2004|11:22pm] |
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Today was really good. Jazan came over after work and we had quality time. He left with a migrane and I went to Sandoval's and watched Predator and ate really good thanksgiving food. We went to the emo show hardcore and stayed for one band. It was gay. We left for Taco Bell and hung out with Brooks and etc. Basically sat in the back of Custer's truck for 2 hours. Got to spend some time with Brooks, which was fun. Now I'm home and tired.
PS: Sandoval, dont stop dont stop dont stop dont stop dont stop...
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[24 Aug 2004|10:50pm] |
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[18 Aug 2004|07:28pm] |
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Family is back on Fox tonight!!
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[16 Aug 2004|08:00pm] |
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Today sucked. I went with Tracy to the mall and we got caught shoplifting. We had at least 200$ worth of merchandise, but got let off with a warning. I couldn't have gotten into trouble because im 17, but Tracy is 18. It sucked ass.
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[16 Aug 2004|12:30am] |
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I did a really stupid thing tonight.
I read John's livejournal.
I got what I expected. A lot of stories about getting stoned and fucking random strangers, that lot. but something I didn't expect was an entry that mad me cry. I don't even know why it did.
It wasn't anything special. Just one of his nostalgic entries from May of this year. He wrote things like:
"I talked to Sandoval last night. I havent talked to him in months.[...] We talked about alexis, I accepted that I do truly miss her. but it makes me soo much more happier to know that she is truly happy with her current b/f. I wont ever forget that girl, shes the standard here at my house, the standard my mom compares every other girl to, that I bring into the house.
"well alexis did this, and she doesnt do this, and alexis used to talk to me all the time"
the closest one has been Nicole, but I guess none can compare. I kinda like it that my mom brings her up from time to time, but oh well."
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"I thought of love and allthe girls I said love to in high school. I said I love you to about 6 girls while in high school. It was only true with 2 of them. the first thing that came to mind after remembering all those girls was alexis. her poster that she drew one night here. it was the night we watched the ring, and made out for the first time ever. It was on my bed, and something about that girl was totally different. I guess I can accept alot of things with her were different. She was my true first love, just like rachel is sandoval's first true love. We agreed on how it'll never leave us. no matter what happens."
I was crying at the first paragraph. I don't fucking know why!! I just burst into tears. Maybe, deep down inside, I miss him because the good times with him were great. They're nothing compared to Jazan, nothing could ever compare to Jazan, but the good times were amazing.
I also called Tracy about 20 minutes ago because we're hanging out tomorrow after school at 10:30 am. She's still friends with him...I told her that I wanted her to call him and see if we could all hang out tomorrow. I told her it was because I wanted to see his mom. That's true, I miss her, but it's not the whole truth. I just kinda want to see what he's like now, what kind of person he is. I miss him.
I &heart; Jazan to death. He and I had a great day today. We just layed around together and he told me "I love you. I really do love you. I love you a lot." I know he and I will outlast and outdo John and I. It'll be seven months this Friday (the 20th). I've never been happier than I am with him.
I feel bad about going to see John (even if he doesnt show up) because I wouldn't want Jazan to hang out with his exes. But I want to see John's mom and therefore, it's okay. I'll tell Jazan, too. I'll make sure I tell him.
Am I making a mistake?
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[27 Jul 2004|10:31pm] |
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It's been quite a long time since I've last updated. Jazan and I are going strong at 6 months now. I'm almost done with my summer session of college and it has not been easy. Thank god there are 2 weeks in between the end of this and the beginning of fall term, even if I'm in high school during that time.
I'm changing my physical appearance in the sense of, oh shit, I'm actually a girl. I kinda like the transition, but i refuse to lose my vibrant colours and personality.
I'm a little worried about sheena. I got my phone taken away for a bit and couldnt call her like her journal said. I hope she's alright.
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[23 Jun 2004|10:54pm] |
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I went to the movies tonight for my little brother's birthday. Thank god Decker and Brooks came along. We went to our seats and I was greeted by Jared, Condor, Chase, AJ, and Stephen. We joked about Jazan being in Africa and about being Jewish. It was a nice surprise. The movie kicked ass. Afterwards, I got my PS2 from Decker and was invited to hang out with them, but I couldn't because of Ryan. He and I left, I flicked off AJ and Condor on the way out despite their "I love you"s and went to Taco Bell. Had a chat with Shawn and went home.
I really needed tonight to happen. Made me feel better about myself. I have a girl talk planned with Decker for tomorrow or Friday, I hope he doesn't tell me anything bad about Jazan because that's who it's about.
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[18 Jun 2004|09:01pm] |
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Jazan's in Africa until the fifth of July. It sucks a lot. We can't talk at all until he gets back because of how much it costs to make a phone call.
I have plans to play soccer with Valerie on Sunday. Uber excited about that. I haven't played with more than 3 people in forever. Apparently, we play with "hot college guys." I could care less as to what they look like, so long as they can keep up with me.
Gave blood today for the first time ever. I hated it. I was all queasy. Bleh.
Oma's going to get me on the pill. Jazan should be happy about that.
Uhm....yeah.
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[10 Jun 2004|01:25pm] |
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Well, my puppy D'arcy got hit by a car today. Found out when I got home from Cross Country. Animal Control brought her home in a black plastic bag and said it'd be best not to open it.
She was so young....
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[08 Jun 2004|10:37am] |
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Cross country was surprisingly good yesterday. It was just me, Ammerman (sp?), and Rachel. We ran and then worked out, then I left for soccer...
Which didn't happen because of the crazy ass thunderstorm in Citrus Park. So, instead, we ordered 60 wings, and had a party at Jazan's mom's house with her, his brother and sister, and 3 of his sister's friends so that we could watch the Lighting kill the Flames. Well, we won. Woo. (I'm not a hockey fan, but the wings were good)
Didn't wake up for CC today. Way too tired. So instead, I'm going to run around the "neighbourhood".
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[31 May 2004|10:41pm] |
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Started Cross Country today. Massively sore. College sucks. I hope I get accepted to Eckerd. Yadda Yadda
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[17 May 2004|02:34pm] |
May 19th is national gas boycott day. With gas prices on the rise, something must be done to send a message to the gas companies. If no one in America buys gas on the 19th the gas companies will lose an estimated $45 MILLION dollars! If you're not happy with paying over $2.00/gallon please do not buy gas on May 19th. Please re-post this so that it will be able to reach as many people across the country as possible.
~~~~~an email i got
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